Hope

Keagen's current status on his carepage is something to the effect of: In times of uncertainty, there is nothing wrong with hope. Since I knew that my status on facebook didn't need to say that I was praying for Keagen (they all should know by now), I changed my status to the saying about hope.

As we've gotten further and further into this whole fighting cancer thing, it's gotten so much harder for me to stay hopeful. It seems like every complication that Keagen can have, every infection that he can get, every fever, every bug, every hole in the line, every bad side effect of chemo...he's gotten it. Did we expect the stem cell transplant to be any different...we hoped.

Now I find myself just leaning on prayers and hope and optimism to get through this tough time. My sister is amazing, how she stays so positive, I do not know. I don't think I could. Just thinking about going through what she is going through right now makes me want to weep and sob, and yet she's had to deal with it daily for the last 7+ months. I don't know how she does it. When I talked with her on the phone last night, she basically said "I don't have any other choice, Ashley, I have to believe that he's going to make it, that he's going to beat this like he has all of those other obstacles that have been thrown at him."

Hope.